Shauna is almost home

How long can a person go without having sexual desires?

I haven't been able to have sex since 1996, and the year is 2008.
Wow that has got to be a record, twelve years of not having sexual relations. I believe what happen is when I found I was infertile and my desire to have sex died.
That was such a long time ago. 12 years, damn never gave that much thought.
Oh there has been women in my life but each time it failed to reach a point where I could use it and then nothing, they used to say it wa… Continue

I can’t believe I’ll turn 47 this month. I’m amazed I’ve lived this long and survived my life as a Intersex person of sorts. It has never been an easy journey; in fact, it’s been very difficult, being different and trying to fit in, not only in the two-sex/two-gender binary system at large. Most people when they see me read me as a “average type guy,” but that wasn’t always the case and in some ways still isn’t. I’m still seeking a welcoming community where I feel comfortable and accepted for wh… Continue

Often while dressed I feel a euphoria and have to ask myself why? Makeup, clothes and all the accessories doesn't make me a woman. Also my wanting to transition, I didn't wake up one day and say I WANT TO BE A WOMAN TODAY, no it has been dwelling in my soul for so long that I decided it was either be happy or be miserable the rest of my life.

Beginning is the hardest thing I have ever did, marriage wasn't hard, the Navy wasn't difficult but changing my appearance is so difficult. There is an em… Continue

This whole day was spent analyzing my past and present and questioning my future. I worry more about the people in my life than I do about myself and this isn't right but that is how it is. People have known me simply as Shawn, a man with hopes of happiness amongst friends, family and whomever I meet along the way.

It is something I strive for, that is how I became who I am and now Shauna wants her chance. I think I stole her moment when she was younger, she would have been more popular than I.… Continue

I was watching a show on BBC tonight regarding a beautiful young girl whom was opposite of myself, she wanted to be a man and she was prepared to become him at no thought or no costs to which he could find happiness.
Now why do we do that? It is something that is wrong something terribly programmed in our minds that we are in the wrong body.
I can honestly say I am not in the wrong body, I share a body which is both male and female which I have learned to live in. I didn't like it, I have always… Continue